365 Day Blog Post Challenge 2019
114. Isn’t this moment the most important thing?
Sometimes it takes difficult things to happen in life to make us remember how important it is to appreciate the everyday moments that we often take for granted.
I am down to just 3 days until the big surgery date. On Monday I will be going in for my complete hysterectomy, bilateral salpingectomy and bilateral oophorectomy. I have so many fears running through me right now. So many “what-ifs”. When I am afraid and am experiencing pretty intense anxiety, I will normally be stuck in my own head and become withdrawn and often times a little snippy towards others. Yet, at the same time I want the love and support of everyone around me. Even when I’m not always being the nicest. I know it seems unfair and I agree with that. So I am currently trying to practice the idea that THIS moment is important… and then the next moment is important… and all moments of life are important. Maybe this will pull me out of feeling so focused on my self pity and remember that others around me are trying to live their important life moments and my negativity is probably making it hard for them.
Each moment is important. I don’t know how we go about continually reminder ourselves of this, but of all things, this is clearly something worth trying for.
This is me… trying to live my best moments even through the face of fear.