365 Day Blog Post Challenge 2019
308. If you had the courage to speak your mind you would say…..
I remember a time when I would want desperately to speak out when I had an opinion or idea but I was just to terrified, so I would sit in silence and keep my thoughts to myself. I would say I have improved a great deal from those days. I still normally keep my opinions to myself, whether it be at work or when talking to friends/family, but there are certain topics that I now feel strongly enough to break out of my comfort zone and speak up about.
I often get told at work that I don’t speak up or provide feedback enough. Little do they know that my 25 year old self would be flabbergasted at the person I am now and the amount of speaking I do. So, although to some I may not seem outgoing enough, little do they know the amount of progress I’ve made. When I am confronted with the need to be more vocal, I usually reply that I may not be that person that speaks out about everything, but when I do speak, it’s going to mean something and be important. If I feel it’s worth speaking up about, it’s probably worth someone listening.
If I had the courage to speak my mind, I would probably speak up more about my overall worth as a person. I often feel that I am taking for granted. I don’t usually speak up about it because I think that I partially bring it on myself. By being that person that always needs to be in control and do things myself (because I feel like if I want something done right, I need to take care of it personally), it’s kind of hard to then turn around and say that I feel like I am being taking advantage of or taken for granted. But we are talking about what I would say if I had the courage, so I guess this would be a good starting point for me. I think that at work there is an expectation that I will always work above and beyond, even if it requires giving up my weekends and working 12+ hour days. People take for granted that due to my work ethics I will get unrealistic demands taken care of. Again, I am partially to blame for this because I am often the “yes” gal. On a personal level, people often take for granted that I will always be the one to keep in touch and make the effort in most relationships. Often times if I don’t make the initial contact, it could be months and months before certain people would reach out to me. I don’t say anything (lake of courage?) because often times I feel it’s just not worth the confrontation.