365 Day Blog Post Challenge 2019
169. What is the last thing you did just to make yourself happy?
The last time I did something to make myself happier just happened today.
I decided that I would take a few hours off of work tomorrow to just come home and decompress and spend some quiet time by myself. I’ve been experiencing an excess amount of anxiety the last few days. I’ve had to talk myself out of numerous panic attacks just within the last 24 hours. One of which was at 2:00am this morning. I know my anxiety is about at it’s max capacity when I wake up in the middle of the night and I’m not able to go back to sleep because I feel so anxious and panicky. This morning was one of those times. I woke up unexpectedly and before I could will myself back to sleep, my mind started racing about work and life. It’s always seems to be that my fears are overexaggerated tenfold in the stillness of the night. So, I decided that it’s important during this time of trying to get through these health issues that I take some “me” time. I made the decision to go into work this morning and explained to my boss that I would like to take a much needed half vacation day tomorrow. At first I thought of all the different errands I could do during this time, but then stopped myself and had to remember that I was taking this as mental health time. So the plan is to just come home, change into PJs (yes, even if it’s only 1:00pm in the afternoon) and either put a favorite show on TV or just recline in the chair and put some music on and shut my eyes for a few hours until Don gets home. However small, I think this little act of kindness to myself will bring me some of the comfort I am desperately seeking right now.