365 Day Blog Post Challenge 2019
125. How important is rest and relaxation to you?
Rest and Relaxation are two of my favorite words. How important are these things to me? Extremely! That being said, do I actually incorporate these into my daily life? Absolutely not.
I know the importance of getting both sufficient rest and enough relaxation. I just unfortunately do not allow myself to do what I know I should. My logical brain tells me that rest is vital in so many ways. If I got more rest, I would be able to concentrate more at work, be able to boost my mood and have a better handle on my weight and health. The strange part is that I am always exhausted. So you would think that if you are exhausted you would be able to fall asleep at a reasonable hour and stay asleep, right? Yet, I don’t.
I spent 18 years living with a special needs animal that would require me to get up several times in the middle of the night to take care of him. For 18 years, I never slept a full night through. Even when on vacation my body was just so adapted to not sleeping that I would end up waking up several times out of habit. Even when he was not trying to wake me, he was always wanting to lay so close to me that it could make it difficult to sleep. I know some would say that I was crazy to put up with it, but it was my love and I did everything I could to make sure he had a happy life. Sleep just seemed so unimportant. He passed a year ago, and I am still not sleeping through the night. I do get more sleep then I did when he was with us, but still do not get any good or consistent sleep. Hopefully that will improve over time.
As for relaxation… boy, that is a story all in itself. I have a pretty strong Type A personality which leaves little room for relaxation. I find it very difficult to just sit and do nothing. Even if we are home in the evening just hanging out watching TV, I am the type of person that jumps up every 15 minutes because I remembered something I need to do. I am not one that can just say, “oh, I’ll do that later”. When I think of it, I have to do it. Even when we are on vacation I find it hard to just lay back and relax. I find it hard to lay around at the pool for more than an hour before I start feeling fidgety and anxious.
I will soon be undergoing a major surgery which will require me to basically do next to nothing other anywhere from 4-6 weeks. This could either go two ways. 1.) I could learn that relaxing and allowing my body to heal and decompress is not such a terrible thing, or 2.) I could have a complete anxiety attack because I won’t be able to get up and do all the things that I normally do. Hmmmm… only time will tell I guess.
Just between us… I already have a list of things I want to accomplish that won’t require me to get out of bed. Which means I can still be type A personality and stay productive, but still follow doctors orders. 😉