365 Day Blog Post Challenge 2019
220. People are surprised to learn that I…
Although I don’t necessarily volunteer a lot of information about myself, I am more than happy to discuss just about anything if asked. When it comes to my past, there are a lot of stories I could share that would surprise a majority of the people I know. There have been certain periods of my life that would almost sound like something from a movie or sometimes as dramatic as a soap opera. There have also been situations that I like to jokingly refer to as my “Jerry Springer” period. There are a handful of people that know pretty much everything there is to know about me. Those people that do not know the “real” me probably would be shocked to know…
1.) I was a cheerleader. I know this may sound silly, but because I am such a quiet, reserved and shy person, people often find it very surprising when they find out that I was a cheerleader in high school. Most people would assume as a cheerleader that you would be outgoing and sociable. Everything about that couldn’t be farther from my personality.
2.) That I have been married three times and that my first marriage was when I was 17 years old. I don’t know what it is about that number 3, but it seems that the fact that this is my 3rd marriage seems to surprise people. Maybe it’s much more common to be in a second marriage, but when I tell people that I was married twice before this, they seem to give me that shocked look. It seems like there is often a need to further explain, so when I say that my first marriage occurred when I was 17 years old, that causes even greater surprise.
3.) I spent the night in Folsom State Prison. Not as an inmate, but I was still locked in a small studio apartment type room that was surrounded by guard towers containing guards with large guns. Let me explain. When I was married to my first husband, we ended up separating over time. This occurred for many reasons. We were both very young and he was just not ready for this type of commitment. After we split up, he managed to get himself involved with some very shady people. It did not take long before he himself was involved in the crimes that these other people were committing. He clearly wasn’t very good at the criminal life, because he was caught- arrested- and put in prison pretty quickly. Although we were split up at the time all of this happened, we were still friends. After he was moved around from jail to jail and then finally sentenced and put in Folsom Prison, I would actually spend a good majority of my weekends going out to visit him. We were legally married so we were able to have conjugal visits. He was scared and lonely so I agreed to go. Not that I ever thought I would be able to survive in jail, spending the night in this environment only proved that I could never do it. Something about being locked in this place overnight without the ability to leave if I wanted was to claustrophobic for me. I actually ended up getting super sick with a migraine until I was finally “released” the next morning. I can’t say that this experience made me understand what it’s really like in prison, but it did give me enough of a glimpse to know that this is NOT a place I ever want to be.
4.) People are often surprised to know that I am deathly afraid of dogs and have been since I was a little girl. Dogs terrify me. I am getting a little better as I’ve gotten older. I can usually handle being around small dogs now, but if there are larger dogs or specific breeds of dogs, forget it. I just recently had a major panic attack – probably one of the worse I’ve had in years- when I was at an establishment getting my hair cut and one of the workers let someone bring there dog in from the car. The dog was large and walked around the whole place of business and even came right up to me at one point when I was in the chair getting my hair cut. I completely panicked. I started basically yelling at the lady to hurry up and finish that I had to get out of there RIGHT NOW. I was shacking so hard I could barely hold my phone. As soon as I got out of the door I burst into hysterically tears. I know some would say that this is ridiculous to act this way, but I can tell you that fears are real. Logic does not diminish fear, so if you are that afraid, no matter what someone tells you, it won’t make a difference… you will still be afraid.
I don’t want to give the wrong impression here.. I don’t hate dogs. I actually think that most are pretty adorable. That is, as long as they are not anywhere near me.