My Story: 365 day blog challenge Day 28

365 Day Blog Post Challenge 2019
Day 28
136. What would have happened if you didn’t leave the house this morning?

If I had not left the house this morning, I sure would have been a happier and less stressed person!  I love being home, so the idea of not leaving the house sounds wonderful to me.  This is common for us introverts.  We love being home and love our alone time.

Let’s see.. what would have happened had I not left the house this morning?  First off I would have not gone to my doctor appointment this morning.  May not seem like a big deal, but I have not been to the doctor (for any reason) for almost 2 1/2 years.  I have some health issues that really should be monitored, so not seeing my doctor for such a long period of time is really not a good idea.  To be honest, the only reason I went today was because they refused to refill my blood pressure medication unless I came in to have my blood pressure checked.  On top of that, they said they were reluctant to refill my anxiety medication since it has been so long since they had seen me.  No anxiety medication is NOT an option.  So they played their hand by withholding prescription refills and I folded by finally making an appointment to go in.  I not only deal with trying to control high blood pressure and anxiety, but I also have an intestinal disease called Ulcerative Colitis.  It is an ugly disease and unfortunately is something I will have my whole life.  Luckily it goes into remission on occasion so I get some relief at times.  I am supposed to have a colonoscopy ever 2 years to have it checked.  I haven’t done that either.  Not good on my part.  On top of all of that, I also have a horrible problem with clenching and grinding my teeth in my sleep.  I’ve been doing this for about 10+ years.  At first, I was just having to deal with a bunch of broken teeth (nothing worse then walking yourself up from sleeping by chewing on part of your tooth you broke off).  I believe the crowns in my mouth from broken teeth are starting to out number the real teeth.  I try and wear a nightguard, but I have a gaging issue, so it’s a challenge.  I also grind and clench my teeth so hard while I sleep that when I am able to wear the nightguard, I end up biting right through it.  So, after so many years of putting so much pressure on my jaw and teeth, it is starting to effect other areas.  I now am experiencing ringing in my ears and I have intense and sharp pains in my neck and facial muscles.
After my one appointment with my doctor this morning, I left having 5 other appointments that are either already scheduled or will be scheduled shortly.  I have to go have my hearing and ears checked to make sure that the jaw clenching is not causing damage to my ears.  I have another appointment tomorrow with a “behavioral” doctor.  I’m not 100% sure what that is, but I guess it is someone who is going to help me to try and understand and control my anxiety.  Subconscious anxiety is what is probably causing my nighttime teeth grinding/clenching.  I am also going to go to physical therapy to try and help the pain in my jaw and neck.  I’ve done this before many years ago.  It is painful (they have to go inside the mouth and push on the muscles on both side of your jaw bone), but it does bring relief after it is all over.  I am also going later this week for complete blood work and last, I will be getting a call from the gastrointestinalogist to schedule my colonoscopy.  Uggg….. not looking forward to that.   Clearly had I not left the house this morning, I would have not taken care of all of these issues that definitely need attention.


Other than the doctor appointment (and work of course), I also went to the post office to mail all of my EBAY sales from this past weekend.  I guess if I had not left the house, those people that purchased things would have to wait an extra day for their items.  Since we know people don’t like to wait for anything anymore (instant gratification), it was probably good I got that taken care.

When I first saw this topic, the only thing I could think was “well… nothing would have happened if I had not left the house this morning”.  Given some time to think about it, I guess I was wrong.  Important things do take place everyday, no matter how small they are.  So, as much as I would love to be a hermit and stay in my house and never leave, this was a good reminder of the importance of getting out and getting things done, even when we don’t want to.

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